Wednesday, October 19, 2005

There seems to be an undeniable theme in my Bible study lately: repentance and confession. It came up again in BSF this morning. We were talking about Cain killing Abel and feeling not much remorse, except in the fact that he got caught! God gave him a chance to repent and he basically blew God off. Our leader talked about resentment and how it can take over our lives. She defined resentment as ill will toward a real or imagined grievance. Ouch! God showed me this morning that I have been very resentful toward my husband's ex-wife. I have so often felt like I deserved to be angry towards her. I mean, look at what she does, how she acts, etc! But God knows my heart. The leader stated that sometimes we believe God will change a circumstance more than a heart. I prayed this morning that He would change my heart. I don't want to be resentful or bitter or unrepentant. So here I am confessing. Why is that so hard for us? For ME? "Rebellion is centered on self; obedience is centered on God." Oh, I want to be obedient! The only way to uproot bitterness and sin is to call on the name of the Lord.

Hey, God......

Thursday, October 06, 2005

I LOVE FALL! This is my absolute FAVORITE time of year! I love the sound of my windchimes chiming. I love the feel of the cool breeze (or wind, as the case may be!) I love the changing leaves, the smells. Cool days, especially the first ones, make me smile! :o)


I am counting my blessings today. I have the most wonderful husband! I can't believe I get to be married to him!

And friends! Oh my goodness! Sometimes I feel lonely and insecure; but then someone hands me a piece of bread and tells me how much they love me and what an encouragement I am to them. And as they do, they have no idea how much I needed that at that precise moment. But God did.


God, thank you for cool breezes....and cool friends! And the COOLEST husband!!!!